mood: hot

music: Noesis - Gackt

Hard to Deal

Your time here is done
You have gone on ahead of me, just as I knew you would
But still, it is hard to deal

You call me in the morning to wish me good luck
But still, it is hard to deal

You call me in the afternoon, to see how my day went
But still, it is hard to deal

You call me in the evening, just to talk
But still, it is hard to deal

You talk to me on-line to wish me sweet dreams
But still, it is hard to deal

It is hard to deal with not seeing you every day

(c) 2005 Heather Bottger

Future

Where am I going?

Why am I here?

When I look back,

Will I like what I see?

Ten years from now,

Where will I be?

mood: hot

music: Within You - David Bowie

Always Waiting for You

I said I'd wait forever for you, but...
I waited for you as long as I could,
But I lost myself to loneliness and found another.
So if you'd gotten over it
You would have found another also.

Then there was a third, who tried to use me
And abused me as you had been abused
But in the beginning his love for me was pure.

Now the fourth, who has stood by my side.
Even through one of the toughest trials imaginable,
But it brought us closer together.

But now I see that I have been waiting for you all along...
Waiting for you to call
To send me a letter
Or reply to an email

So I am still waiting for you

(c) 2005 Heather Bottger

mood: hot

music: Materia - Nobu Uematsu

Aiden

You asked me for a favor
And I said that I would grant it

You told me it would hurt you
But I did it anyway

Afterward I cried into your shoulder
As you lay unconscious in my arms

And now...
I wear a blood red crystal...
~To remind me of the boy I fell in love with~
Mounted on a silver chain
~To remind me of the man you have become~

(c) 2005 Heather Bottger

mood: hot

music: Violator - Nobu Uematsu

After the Rain

I had thought my friends
Would always be there for me
But when things got rough
I found myself alone
I moved on and made new friends
But I was very different from them
And our friendship was not true
One stayed by me
But only when others were not around
Because of them I lost all faith
True friends are only things of dreams
I found you
And you proved me wrong
Because after the rain had fallen
You were still there

circa 2000

mood: hot

music: Beyond the Wasteland - Nobu Uematsu

A Walk in the Rain

For one, you were a brother
To another, a lover
You were a partner to one
And a protector to another
You were a playmate for a hacker
And adored by a dog
Those you met along the way still remember you
But none as fondly as I
You were the one who I looked up to
You taught me to live my life
You weren't afraid to die
But you did
So no matter how hard I try
When I search for your star in the night
I still cry
So I guess I'll just take a walk in the rain
And try to forget some of the pain
And one day I'll see you again
Somewhere, Somehow, Someday

(c) 2002 Heather Bottger